Life

It is an awesome feeling to be home. It is a horrible feeling to be home without our little man, but it is still nice to be home. Danny and I have worked on the house some and tried fitting all of the things that helped make our life in FW back into our home here and we are thinking we just have too much stuff! lol Time for a sale ....

We have walked to the school to get Kota the last 2 days. We have taken the puppy with us to take an afternoon walk. I need to walk anyway, so it felt really good to get out and be in the fresh air and sunlight. Kota loves us walking to get him ... he loves to lead the dog home with her leash! We turned the corner today to come to the house and Kota and the dog just started running. It warmed my heart to see his little legs running down the street with his dog and his backpack flopping on his back. I said to my husband ... "You can't do THAT in FW!" There was no traffic on the road, birds were singing, and just the sounds of Kota and Pumpkin running down the road. Brilliant!

Sounds silly but the sound of cereal pouring in the kitchen, a DP can being opened, the doorbell ringing, sitting on the front porch, opening the windows ... washing our own dishes, cooking our own meals (and as BIG as we want to!) are all things that I am just savoring this week. I mean, I am taking in EVERY single sound, every single sight, smell ... you name it. I am cherishing it all.

This experience has changed me and my family. It has changed who we are forever. We will never be the same again, and that is a good thing. We are much closer, filled with more love, more patience, more kindness and goodness, mercy, joy ... the fruits of the spirit that God wants us to possess run abundantly within this family. Life is so much sweeter when you come so close to losing someone.

We don't have a lot in the way of material things and we don't need them. It's only what's in the heart that matters. I think of the days we were in that small 10x20 room (may not be that big actually!) and had all we ever needed right there with us. EACH OTHER. That's it. God has such an awesome way of showing himself to us ... his gifts are in my children's smiles, their laughter, their jokes, even their tears. You can't begin to imagine how grateful I am for the experiences we have had since October of last year. It has been amazing....Simply amazing.