Numb (repost from 2/22/09 on myspace)

I am numb. I don't even know what to write here. Danny and I are on our way home. Kadin is still in NICU. We were one hour away from loading him in the truck when he had an A&B episode. Dr. Stevener suggested he remain hospitalized until he can go 5-7 days without doing this. We weren't told this information but he has had 3 episodes this week with this same thing but he brought himself back up within 30 seconds without stimulation from anyone. They said we weren't told cuz it wouldn't be something to keep us from going home. Regardless, it is information we would have liked and needed to have known. Had he done this on the road I wouldn't have known he had done it this week ..... you get the idea. Not much more to say right now. Like I said, I am numb. Danny is experiencing his own emotions too. The radio is playing. The ride home is long. Pray for Kadin and for us ... thanks.